There were some family problems I got recently. My grandma passed away last 2 weeks, I had been there at her last minutes and it deeply haunted me because of all the pains she had to suffer. But we're Christian, somehow the death isn't gloomy, grandma had a great life with too many people loving her (you can say so at her funeral), the belief of her now being in the heaven with God and with no pain allows us to keep moving on.
I don't usually talk about my personal life, but I was in a bad mood and easy to get angry. I got back to life now, sorry if I happened to disagree with someone, you know I didn't mean to. And sorry for spamming you guys with my dark art-stuffs these days.